| | My sister was talking behind my back again.
I'm dressing "different" for journalism, Mrs. Ashley has me doing something for an article I can't tell you what because it's a secret. But yea my sister is saying shit behind my back going, she looks better like this, she needs to stop wearing black & things like that. And you would think it doesn't bother me, but I love the way I dress, I like my style & if she has a problem with that than she can get over it. She's NOT me & I'm NOT her.
She can't stand my jokes either. My dad told John that he could jump off a water tower for fun, my dad said that he could have a bungie cord, I was like "I hope the bungie cord breaks" we all laughed. John told Christina that and she was like "yea my dad's change a lot since he's been really hanging out with Stephanie.
She makes me sound like a horrible person! I'm not! I found out today why I'm so defensive in this house, it's because they used to beat the crap out of me & make fun of me growing up. I'm really sensitive, I mean like sensitive! I've always been like that & I guess with all the emotional & sometimes physical abuse I've become very defensive in this house. I've always wandered why I'm so anxious around them, why I say the things I say. I VERY few memories growing up. I just remember having my dolls rape eachother & crying a lot.
I know it doesn't give me an excuse but it gives me a reason, which makes me feel a little less psycopahtic. It also explains why I'm so sarcastic, sarcasm is a funny way to say something mean. I think I'm hysterical with my sarcasm though I can't stand when other people use it, some of them are good at it, but others make it sound REALLY mean or REALLY corny. I've managed to learn the true art of sarcasm. :D I'm so proud of myself. :D
But I'm going.
Peace & Out
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| | Posted 1/27/2007 12:21 AM - 19 Views - 10 eProps - 6 comments
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